"Life's Understudy" · 23/05/2009 08:21 pm by Bron
How do you create the life you want when it involves other people? You can’t rely on anything except uncertainty. I have a domestic heart. I shouldn’t allow myself to be watered down.
I talked to Hayley a bit tonight. Got a little choked up, which she was gracious enough not to acknowledge. Something she said her father told her- “Love someone for who they are right now, not for who they once were, or who they might become.” They’ll never be that person again. And the future is always changing. [February 2009]
Revolutionary Road. It’s horrific. Painful to watch. Really well done.
”..For years I thought we’ve shared this secret that we would be wonderful in the world. I don’t know exactly how, but just the possibility kept me hoping. How pathetic is that? So stupid. To put all your hopes in a promise that was never made..”
It was somehow eerie, to see with Steve and Kim. They’ve booked their flights to Queensland, and a removal van. I hope it works well for them there. Dad will take on the business. And family life here will be so different, again.
I’m afraid of our tempers. Ours. Those that belong to us. Those that can hurt us and wear us down. Those directed at us, almost with the intent to do so. [24/06/2008]
I dreamt my father was not the saint I thought he was. Or, that is, not the saint I wanted to believe he was. And he tried to live the lie for me. Only for me. Such an awful realisation. To be an unknown burden. [6/4/2009]
Family can smother us with the best intentions. ”(They) embrace a suspicion that something meaningful could happen if they could collaborate on a meaningful scale, but they find themselves continually stmied by the personalised nature of their goals.” [from Absense – SUM: Forty tales from the afterlives. David Eagleman]
